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At the moment I'm reading Dr Benway's book Hard Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World. I think it's "good", although there's nothing quite as much fun as the description of the 30 year old lezzing up with the 13 year old in Norweigians Would, although that was pretty much the best thing I've ever read that wasn't posted on asstr.org.
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One Mojito, two Gin and Tonics, Three Bacardi Lime Sodas, and a couple of pints of Stella please.
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Vikram - fair enough. In which case, unequivocal advice is plough on with MA, and simultaneously spend the next eight months bumming round on the EU and European Commission websites. Loads of jobs, they'd fall over someone like you, and you get to move somewhere like Brussels and leave the pressures of London life behind for a bit. Only drawbacks would be the seriously long application forms and the possibility that you might be anti-Europe, in which case you could still bring down the system from the inside.
Bandy looks like an Easter Island statue.
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quote:Originally posted by Vikram: i used to have a future
Benny, we should totally become terrible drunks, old before our time. i could be your uncle Monty.
Or Vikram (et al & jokes apart) - you could end up being me.
A fifty-something has-been despised by the very people you court as some sort of .....whatever. And you know what moononline thinks of me.
All you have to do is give up - and feel sorry for yourself afterwards.
Better still, surely Vikram, is to see this one through?
But then I would say - think a bit harder before the next thing: it isn't necessary to keep up setting barriers to leap, you know?.
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quote: Here is my honest opinion. You have the wits and smarts, but you clearly lack the focus that you need to puts your talents to realization. Sure, quitting school is an option, but if memory serves me correctly, you quit school once before, you have a tendency to stray, pick up and leave when things go wrong or not your way, and you bore easily.
However, based on these facts, I think you do require some discipline or focus on something, even if you don't like it. If you quit school and intern here, work there, you will be in the same position next year as you are today. How long will it take you to finish school? Another year, maybe two? I would definitely commit to the MA because it offers cachet, will broaden your career/job choices, and you'll highly likely meet more and new interesting people in an environment outside of your comfort zone. Even if you didn't like your major, you could switch to something else, but I think going to school will put you on a track to...ugh, for a lack of a better cliche...success. Quitting simply is not an option.
If you're looking to add value to your life or career than I recommend that you explore your options WHILE going to school. It doesn't have to be one or the other. Nowadays, schools appear to offer countless opportunities for you to: 1. Work abroad. 2. Intern/work experience with prestigious companies 3. Build your network. If you're not feeling happy about the chosen career path, suck it up! It's not as dramatic as you make it seem, and like i said before, there are things you can do alongside. Play in a band. Paint. Intern for another company twice a week. Brush up on your design skills. Whatever, the world is at your fingertips and you're young enough to have these options... take advantage of it.
When i was in school, I was working f/t and interning. If I can do it, you can as well.
Am I lecturing?
We often lament and bitch and moan about our problems--that's easy to do. What IS difficult is finding the solution to your problems and sticking with it, right?
Your +/- list has some vallidity and you make some strong arguments, but in the end, I have the impression that you're bored and looking for an easy escape. Stick with school, get your real life in Hoxton, and find a happy medium. You're in charge of your own life, so make something out of it... damnit!!
So that's what I think you should do. But if in the end you decide to quit, have a plan of action before you do anything drastic. And this plan of action. Give yourself a clear indication of what you'll be doing for the next 6- and 12- mths. Small short-term goals which lead up to something that you want to achieve or arrive at.
And stop fucking procrastinating.
friends are good.
it's just that, having lived in a bubble for so long, living without any real goals or structure, it's really hard to adjust (boo hoo). and i look at my peers, where i live, my life, and i'm thinking being a student doesn't fit, working full-time does. which is silly, but i know i could.. oh i fucking don't know anything.
it wasn't meant to be like this! lol i think the main problem is i simply don't see myself going anywhere. i mean, i can't imagine having potential, thriving, success. it's all just so overwhelming.
anyway, enough of this whining. sorry all. i'll just have to figure it out and bloody commit.
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Vikram - I think your friend's advice is so good you should print it out and tape it to the back of your bedroom door.
Have a think about the sort of life you'd have if you quit the MA for "full time work". To flesh it out for you, allow me to use my writerly powers to imagine how you'd feel a year or so down the line...
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quote:Hallo! My name is Vikram and I'm in full time work. At first it was kind of exciting and liberating to just float about, meeting new people and earning alright money. Now it's more like...pathetic and embarrasing. Turning up at the agency, starting new jobs with a friendly grimace and a limp handshake. Hi this is Vikram and he's going to be covering for a while. The job I was given just before this one involved counting paper clips.
Even though I know that I have to do this thing, and in a month I will be sitting in front of a different computer, I can feel a repulsion in my chest that grows stronger with every new CV I write, every apologetic smile as I'm given my new set of instructions. I can't just stop getting up in the morning, but it feels like self harm to carry on. It's not that I want to do anything else - I just want to be a couple of eyes peeking over a duvet at a film on TV. Feet walking through central london. A mouth receiving beer and fags. So, the same as I did last year, I'll just resort to distractions, cloud my thoughts, lie to other people so I'm forced to believe it myself, and continue to get up and carry on with this death by a thousand cuts.
Don't be like my imaginary Vikram there... you don't find direction by quitting something, you find it by starting something - even if it's in the cracks at the beginning or end of the day.
By completing the MA, you'll get - at the very least - a sense of accomplishment that the vague "full time work" alternatives can never provide. Think about it.
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quote:Originally posted by Black Mask: I say, quit the MA. Maybe dabble with heroin.
Black Mask's right. William Burroughs' parents were still giving him pocket money well into his thirties, which allowed him to travel and write without having to work, and we don't hold it against him.
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quote:Originally posted by Boy Racer: Can anyone recommend any good graphic design and web design courses/colleges?
If you want to get into web design, you need to get clued up on XHTML, CSS and standards compliance. I can heartily recommend *this WestCiv course which I completed through work last year. Also, the world is really short on web designers at the moment, so now is the perfect time for you to get started!
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Carved TMO on her clit just to make you feel bad
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quote:Originally posted by Black Mask: No one ever takes my advice, though. Look at imnotthatclever, she's still alive...
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